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I don't feel well lately 
I mean I did good, I'm being very productive and is spending time with more responsibility now, but I guess that causes some other aspects of my life just, idk roll down the hill?
I'm too emotional these day, I'm feeling mentally injured, I feel like I'm lacking of people's affections and I'm just, empty.
Keeping myself busy and I won't think about it anymore, but I can barely nap or sleep without leaking tears and sighing left and right before that.
I don't feel suicidal anymore, but idk now I just, don't want to feel emotional, I don't want to feel.
...kinda ironic huh? The last time I'm numb I wished I could feel again.
...i just dont know anymore.

When you want to kill yourself but you're a coward lol

Living has been horrible lol

I know that I'm not lonely but somehow I still feel like I am
It felt like a horrible void swirling inside and it's tiring, breathing is hard and it hurts to sigh for some reason 
Everything is so overwhelming and I just want to escape, but to be honest, escape to who? When I can't open up to anyone.
I'm tired, I'm so tired.

Summer has never been a good time for my mental health
It has been a year and people always left in this one month for no reason why is this